Snap back to reality

Well, I don't have all the answers. When I talk to people, especially people I care about, I want to speek only out of love. But sometimes I just keep talking, and then I am at risk of saying too much. Too much that may be interpreted as hurtful. Today, I learned that I need to listen more. I am not here to solve everyone's problems. I am not here to fix everyone. Sometimes, it is okay to just listen and not feel like I have to give advise.

With that said, this is the perfect situation for me to turn to food as my shield. I would NEVER say anything to food, to hurt it's feelings. Food is safe for me, right? I can't say too much to food. I can't, unitntionally make food feel "less than", make food have low self-esteem. Nah! I CANNOT hurt food, therefore food is my ULTIMATE friend! My PERFECT mate............right?! WRONG!!!!!!!!!!! Snap out of this Chrissy!

The GOOD thing about this, is that I am recognizing my feelings in this moment. I recognize them and acknowledge my feelings and why I may turn to food. And it is good to recognize this.

I need to stop the thinking of "diet" and think "health". Not only health in what I eat, how I move my body, but a healthy way of dealing with my emotions. Maybe this blog will help me with that.

To ballet or not to ballet

Had my class last night. I enjoyed it! I can't move today, but I enjoyed it. I have signed up for another one for Saturday morning at 7am. Saturday's class is more cardio. I am a bit scared. But you have to start somewhere, right?

I am debating if I want to commit to this and pay $110 a month for the next 12 months. I keep saying I HAVE to incorporate exercise. I think "$110 is a lot a month. But how much would Dr. appointments and perscriptions cost me, in the long run?"

I will let you know what I decide.

Posting on Everyday Health

I posted this on a website called everyday health. I am tracking my calories on this site and I guess felt the urge to share my situation with people.  Here is what I posted:

Hi,


Back in 2010 I joined a weightloss program and lost 109 lbs. Took me about 10 months. Not that I want to brag about it, but I did it with no exercise. Just focusing on my food. Fast forward 2 years, I have kept about 90 of it off, for a year now. The food plan was regular food that I pprepared myself, it was VERY restrictive. Well, I don't want to eat that restrictive for the rest of my life. Needless to say, the scale is starting to go up, little by little. I HAVE to stop that! I am 37 years old, married, have a 3 year old son, work full time and fight rush hour traffic (about 1 hour and 45 minutes every day). So, I am just like most of you.

I am realizing that I HAVE to incorporate exercise into my life now, if I want to maintane my weight loss. I am starting to journal my food again, as I did with the program, and that does help. I also found what helped me, was ACCOUNTABILITY!!! I need that with exercise.

As I am even writing this, I realize, I just have to do! I could ask for tips, yes. But when it comes down to it, I just have to want it bad enough to do it.

Thanks for listening. I think I just answered my own question. Why DON'T I want it bad enough to find a way to incorporate exercise? That's what it really comes down to, doesn't it? Hmm, some food for thought I guess. :) Good luck to ALL of us!

Today, I am taking my very first EVER ballet class. Not even as a little girl, did I ever take a ballet class. I am both excited and a bit intimidated. As I DO love to dance in my kitchen, that is in private, in my kitchen, in my pajamas. This ballet class however, is in public, with a potential friend, with real workout clothes, and an instructor, and other participants!

But you know what, I AM excited for it! This is a new adventure for me. And I seem to be on and "adventure" these days. Replacing fear with love.